Sunday, April 26, 2009
oh yeah.... same o same o.... trying to get back into the momentum of losing the final 10-- now 12 pounds. had the flu again.... that knocked me down for a while.... but ya know.... my eating habits during that time were horrible. Is being sick any excuse for overeating chocolate, sherbet, ice cream.... comfort foods??? no.
did I do that? yes.
I recognized that I was eating for comfort and feeling better.................... finally....
I didn't really fully understand that returning to my fat producing eating habits was wrecking the hard work that I had put into losing weight and toning up this past year UNTIL I had to buy a couple of pair of jeans.
oh yes... that cruel cruel mirror in the dressing room..... that bluntly, brutally honest mirror.
When I'm on track... the dressing room mirror says "Good work -- keep going!"
When I'm not ...... oh.... wow.... this time the mirror said "wow, all that hard work you put in to looking and feeling better. Do you really want to throw it all away? It's not to late to recommit yourself to your own well being."
Funny thing is happening with that "dressing room mirror voice" I'm learning to accept myself as I am. I'm learning to be kinder to myself. The articles in SparkPeople have been essential to my emotional and spiritual growth... in that I am learning new ways to view and take care of myself. The support from Real Live People -- my friends and my fellow Sparkers are so important too!!!
In the past.... that "dressing room mirror voice" would only berate me, "Look at you -- getting fatter by the day...." " Gawd, you are a slob" --- Really mean stuff like that did not make me want to make changes, it made me want to hide. One of my favorite hiding places is food.
So.... Back again. Hello my friends. My gym membership expired and I can't renew it... so it will be a challenge to keep motivated to exercise at home... it can be done! I need yalls support!