Friday, April 24, 2009
Everyone knows that I have multiple sclerosis and everyone supports me with what I do with the MS walk every year...or so I thought. I don't like to show my feelings about something that happens a lot. Especially when its my inlaws. I love me inlaws but I question their motives at times....Yes my FIL is a pastor and my mil and sil are lovely people and I love them for it. But today I had to really hold my tounge. I asked them last week what size do they wear withshirts because as team capitan its my job to get their team shirts. When I told y mil that the MS society wanted everyone to wera orange so we can make a "sea" of orange much like the sea of pink with the breast walk every year. I was excited to do this! So my DH called my MIL this afternoon and reminded her about the walk and she confirmed all 3 of them were going to walk. BUT they weren't going to wear orange..LIKE ITS A DISEASE! When my DH told me this I felt like I was punched in the gut. My FIRST YEAR AWAY FROM MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY IN COLORADO AND I DON"T WANT TO WALK IN IT NOW!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! We should go and do it and not even tell them we were there. My DH and my kids all support me in everything I do!!! MY MOM and my SISTERS and my BROTHER AND MY DAD AND MY BFF ALL SUPPORT ME IN WHAT I DO IN EVERYWAY THEY CAN!!! FOR THE LAST 5-6 YEARS They have been my rock! They were always there for me when I did this. NOW they can't even be with me to do this and now my rock of support shrank. Now I'm going to sign off and go and get my kids and try not to cry because I'm hurt.