Thursday, April 23, 2009
Well week 2 BFL is done.....and I didn't do much good. My weight went up by .6lbs but the worse part is the extra inches that I put on. Here is what happened....I totally sabotageg my own plan.
I have been super stressed out lately with school exams and personal familly issues. Especially this week I have been so tired, exhausted actually. I had bad insomnia and I think I got all of 10 hours sleep all week. All these things definately affected me but when I tell myself this I know they are all just EXCUSES. There is always something going on, that life, it doesn't stop for 3 months so I can get my act together!!!! I have been doing this for so long; making progress and goals and then SABOTAGE! It's like I am scared to be happy or to succeed. Man is it ever starting to drive me bananas!!!!!!
So here is how week 2 of BFL worked out:
I did 1.....yes just1, great HIIT workout. That's it! Pretty impressive hey? That is all I did for workouts for the whole week. It seems like after that 1 workout every other day I always had a great excuse or I would tell myself: "I'll just workout EXTRA hard tomorow" HaHaHaHa! Yeah right, like that isn't lying to yourself. So every day I just came up with one excuse better than the next.
Now for food. This was exceptionally...hmmmmm..what is the word???? There is no word good enough to describe what I ate throughout the week! Let me give you an idea: We ate out almost every night and lets just say I didn't order the steamed fish. And of course we went to the little "casse croute" near our house twice for lunch. I have to explain to you what "casse croute" is....it's a chip stand basically. Oh but wait....I didn't just have burgers and fries, NOOOOO I had to get a huge cheeseburger with everything on it, a hot dog, and a large poutine and a pop. A poutine is a plate of fries covered with cheese curds and gravy. Trust me it is delicious.....it is also probably 800 calories too. During the day I would just munch on anything I could get my hands on, especially at school between exams. Did I eat any of the food I had preped???? Of course not, that would have been to easy! LOL Let's see, what else, oh yes.....I did a solid 2 days of binging. Yup, I stuffed my face with McDonalds (which isn't even that good), 5 pepperoni sticks, a bag of chips, 2 chocolate bars, some pop (about 1/2L), a whole lot of cheese, half a bag of Oreo's, some pasta salad, ribs, some more hot dogs and a poutine. This ways in one day of binging. I won't even bother writting what I ate the second day because I lost track. Talk about losing control! Emotional eater??? You think?
No matter what my excuses there is none good enough to justify why I treated my body that way! And it just shows, I gained some extra inches. As I am writting this down I am doing it with some humor because I beat myself up enough yesterday. There is nothing I can do about it now but regain control this week. Just writting down the food that I ate was therapeutic. I am hoping that next time I want to binge I will just read this and remember how I felt yesterday.
So no matter how bad week 2 was I am still going to try my best to push through and make it through my 12 weeks. Yesterday and today I had great workouts and my food was on par. So all I can do is try to keep it up. I know at some point I will stumble, we all do, I just have to pick myself back up.....ALWAYS!