Learning to Accept Myself
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I am beginning week 17 of SP and am down 18.5 pounds -it's been slow but at least steady. Been stuck for the past three weeks at one pound away from goal - finally down another 1/2 pound this week. Yay! Hopefully next week I will finally hit goal. But the half pound really doesn't matter. My starting weight was not the highest I have ever been, nor is my goal weight the lowest I have ever gone. At my age 10 pounds less than my current goal is not a realistic or healthy weight. My body just can't maintain it. Have been feeling better about myself for the past few months - just getting the eating under control made me feel more positive. It's been nice getting back into my old 'thin' clothes and feeling attractive again. This weekend I went shopping for a dress for a cousin's wedding coming up in June. Was thrilled to find that I am down two sizes and actually looked pretty damn good in form-fitting cocktail dresses, if I say so myself! LOL. Even nicer, I was able to look in the mirror and like what I see - for once I wasn't standing there berating myself for the size of my fanny or the flab on my belly. Not that I no longer have a fanny or a belly - after 53 years and 2 C-sections, my body has its 'scars' but I can now accept them for being evidence of the wonderful road I have traveled in my life. Would I trade my children for flat, taut abs? Not a chance!