Friday, April 17, 2009
When I was a kid, I remember watching musicals with my mother. One of my favorites was My Fair Lady. I wanted to be just like Audrey Hepburn. Tall, thin, graceful. beautiful. To this day, one of my very favorite "outfits" is the white mermaid type dress she wears during the Race sequence. It was the hight of grace and beauty to me. Did I mention that the women in my family tend to be much larger - more like Roseann Barr. We love our food and it shows. Not to mention being endowed like Mae West. I could not understand for the longest time how I was never going to be thin and willowy like Audrey Hepburn. Even at my thinnest - I looked much more like Mae West than Audrey Hepburn.
I came to see that Mae West was not a bad deal, spunky, funnny, audacious, sexy. Not the thin, graceful, imp that Audrey Hepburn was but still not a bad deal.
Then I let myself slip into the Roseann Barr mode - big and fat. Not what I want to be in any way, shape, or form.
Today - I am working towards moving towards a different Rosie ---- Rosie the Rivitor from the WWII era. She was strong. She was beautiful. She was an everywoman. Living on a farm I tell my kids about being farmer-girl strong. We move bales of hay, buckets of food, pails of water without much thought. I laugh to myself when I pick up the buckets of food from the cafeteria at work (I rececyle their food scraps to my pigs) and watch one of the cafeteria gals (who is much skinnier) struggle with a single bucket while I grab two or more at a time and have no problem.
I still think Audrey Hepburn was gorgeous. I still would love to look like Mae West again. I am happy at moving towards being Rosie the Rivitor - farmgirl strong and healthy.