So I've been a fan of the biggest loser for a while...yet I don't watch every season...but I have been watching this current season and as always the show just makes me cry my eyes out.
Sometimes I get annoyed with the show because it's so unrealistic to me in so many ways. It's not natural to workout as much as they do everyday, and gee if we all had that opportunity we could lose that amount of weight that fast too...the thing that gets me is that it is stressed to us constantly that it is extremely unhealthy to lose that fast, but it gets annoying when you think, gee they lost over 100 lbs in 15 weeks and I've only lost 36 lbs in 8 months...but again....I'm not working out 6 hours a day either! Whew!!
But the reason I am writing this blog is because last nights episode really hit me hard. I was crying so much it was silly. I understood how they felt when they had to go shop for an outfit for themselves. They didn't know how to jump into the clothes that were now attainable to them. Clothing they couldn't even entertain before. I felt that way the last time I went shopping. I just didn't know how to shop for those tops. To jump out of my comfort zone and embrace it. This is something I am slowly working on. I now go to stores and even with no intention of buying I pick out many different kinds of tops and just try them on. Feel them out, I'm learning slowly what I can eventually buy and feel comfortable in. It's an emotional process.
I work so hard and then I tend to slack a few days...I get so wiped out, that I have to stop and catch my breath...but man....it seems so difficult some days to be so close yet so far away. I am anxious to get to that finished product of myself.
I see the changes...I have this muscle in my upper arm that pops out now...gee I didn't even know I had one of those!
My endurance has increased so well that when I started doing the Cardio Max video i thought for sure I would collapse through it but I held my own very well and felt great doing it. I could feel every muscle in my body working and it hurt the next day but I did it again. (By the way, to anyone out there who needs something different to break up their routine....Try it...It's the Biggest loser Cardio Max. I found the first level on Exercise TV on ON Demand, it's worth it, I even see a difference in my body just doing it 4 times in 5 days! I'm going to go buy the dvd....it's been a great break from the treadmill)
And I keep getting at it...Sometimes I get down on myself cause i didn't make my workout today...but then i say..."Hey...I've allowed myself two days off a week now, so this just counts as one of them...no reason to get down, you just have to get it done tomorrow..." I know it will happen, patience it is the key. If I'm doing all the right things...then there's nothing to worry bout...
Well...except for that damn scale...Yep I broke down and bought a new one...a digital one...and it told me I weigh 4 lbs more then my other scale....that was a bummer....But I'm not going to let that get me down....right? Stupid scales...
My clothes are looser so that is what I'm gonna go by!
Okay....so I'm done rambling....but I just wanted to share some of my thoughts...