Wednesday, April 15, 2009
They say that the camera adds 10 pounds...I want to know who added soooo many cameras to me when pictures are taken. I look in the mirror and know that I am heavy - but I swear - the mirror does not look anything like the woman in the photographs. I don't know who is to blame...the mirror company, Kodak, the camera manufacturer.....or perhaps is it just my rationalization?
Could that very same rationalization be responsible for my faulty thinking of " I didn't eat THAT much" but when I log my food I am forced to admit that not only was it THAT much but more.
Could that very same rationalization be responsible for the "its not my fault I am so big because of fill in the blank". At what point do I say enough is enough and I am going to be responsible for me and all that it entails?
The last few weeks I was very sick with pneumonia and was more interested in feeling better than making the better choices. I quit making better food choices and headed straight for the comfort foods. The scale reflects my lack of control and lack of activity...back up to 248. Today, feeling better, starting to make the healthy choices again. Still training for the 12K walk. Still working on the rationalizations. Still working on me and all that it entails.