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I am so TIRED of it all ...

Friday, April 10, 2009

I am tired. I am physically tired. I am working out hard - burning 6,000 calories per week. I am focusing on my nutrition - eating well into my caloric range, even though I am not hungry. I know I need to eat to keep my metabolism up. On days when I feel strong enough to push harder, I usually regret it - being unable to sleep, almost too tired to exercise the next day and so on.

I am sick of working so hard, and seeing no progress. Today I am ready to throw in the towel. In fact, I decided to just give up for a day - a kind of break from working so hard. I spent almost 2 hours trying to decide what I wanted to eat today. I have given myself permission to eat ANYTHING. Now this is a real kicker. I DON`T WANT TO EAT ANY OF THAT SAME OLD CRAP I USED TO ENJOY. It no longer appeals to me.

I have not felt deprived over the past month. I have not been having cravings at all. When I want something, I work it into my diet for the day. Even doing this, I have sometimes been having trouble eating my minimum calories. My Carbs/Fats/Protien ratios have all been alright.

This sucks so much.

I know I should feel happy. Here I am giving myself permission to just stop for today, and I am finding out my eating habits have changed so much, that I do not really want to go back. I am just so frustrated. I have been working so hard, and I am ready to give up.

Actually, I know I won't give up. I am going into the Avon Curves Heath study on Monday. I figure I will give it one more month. If after these additional changes I still am not progressing, I may re-evaluate this whole mess.

I know my diet changes are for the better. I also know my fitness is improving, and will continue to do so. I am just so sick of not seeing any changes in my weight or how I look. I know that is supposed to be icing on the cake, but without the icing, I just don't even want any cake today.
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    Don't give up sweetie mama says there'll be days like this!!! Believe you me I 've been there and done that and I know that more of these days will come. You are not going to give up so easily focus on something positive there is nothing wrong with feeling tired or taking a break just don't quit. Tomorrow is a new day and you will make it. If I can so can you. DON'T QUIT!! emoticon emoticon
    3264 days ago
    Stop sulking! You are not giving yourself enough credit! You are doing all of the right things. Don't let the scale rule your mood. Stay off the scale for at least a week and continue to do your exercising. Try cutting back on carbs and adjusting your caloric intake. I read that someone actually increased their calories and continued to exercise only to see weight loss! Drink water, monitor sodium intake as this can make you retain water. Read motivational articles...are you getting the point that I can't let you wallow in self pity?

    You are valuable and supported! Stay focused. emoticon
    3264 days ago
    Your outside may not be showing it but your insides are loving what you are doing for them.

    Numbers are just numbers. Hard to hear but how you feel is so much more important.

    Put you first the rest will take care of itself.

    Adopt a Today I am happy. Repeat it over and over.

    Mine is Healh is my goal weight loss is my gift.

    3265 days ago
    it takes time to see results and be patient i havent seen my ticker move in a month till today so ive been there just dont give up hang in there im here for you
    3265 days ago
    I know, we all go through this, really. I am on my third week with no weight loss and I'm feeling pretty frustrated myself, but I won't give up and neither should you. If you are burning up more than you are eating, it has got to come off sometime! On the weeks that I didn't lose weight, I would take my measurements and that would usually show a change, but I'm not even doing that now. I just look at it like my body is a work in progress and the work isn't done yet. Hang in there. You are doing all the right things, it will happen!
    3265 days ago
  • LOSING_40
    I hear ya although I have not even begun my journey. I have been doing what I should and yet I have only budged my weight on the incline. Probably muscle weight. UUURRRGGGG!!!! We just need to push on. I wish I knew what the answer is. It would make it much easier if I knew when to expect a fat meltdown.
    Be encouraged my friend and keep on going.
    How many Calories are you eating within a day. I am thinking I might try to stick with the lower end of the scale for a while....1200ish.
    3265 days ago
  • MIMOR6
    You are doing great! Don't beat yourself up. Remember you did not gain your weight all in one day and it won't come off all in a day. You want to keep a fitness program you can do for the rest of your life. 6000 calories is alot of exercise. I am doing quite a bit myself but have not reached 6000 I did not want to get burnt out. One day at a time you will see a change.
    3265 days ago
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