Thursday, April 09, 2009
I was trying so hard to get under 200 lbs by March 16th and it didn't happen. I was so frustrated. I have never been this heavy in my life. I figured to myself, since this is not my normal body, then it should come off really easy like i see other people on this website. I am doing all the exercise, the eating, the mind-set, and it seems it's not getting me to my goal. Then, I started asking myself the real questions. How long have I been in the 200 lbs category. I believe I got here 2 years ago after I broke my ankle. Sitting around the house, can't do anything, but still eating. It took approx. 8 months to heal from the whole thing. Then when I was ready to exercise, and I did, I started having some foot problems on the same leg. Needless to say, i was retricted to do only certain activities. I could still go to the gym and workout on the machines... but I didn't do it. Then I had surgery, and this left me impaired for another 6 months. What did I do during that time??? Go back to the above paragraph-- "sitting around the house, can't do anything, BUT STILL EATING."
Hmmph! It's funny how before you know it, the pounds just jump on you. Not to mention, I went through alot of emotional problems at home. Emotional Eating. Yep! That was me. Then I began to eat on purpose to make myself feel as bad as I was feeling. What did that do??? More weight.
So then the question I now ask myself is, how long it take to put all of this weight on??? About 2 years-as I stated before. So why did I think it was going to take 2 months to get it off???
Silly me. It may not take 2 years to get it off, but this process will take awhile. I have to adjust to that and understand it. Now I'm at the point where I am accepting it. I believe I can do it.