Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Okay, so the last couple of days haven't been to good at all. I guess it started when I went to El Paso. I got into the idea of just grabbing whatever to eat. Although the 2 days I was there I think I ate maybe 4 times. But things ae not any better.

I feel like giving up, and it's not because I wasn't seeing results, I am. But I just can't find the time to take care of me. I haven't been to the gym in well over a week because I was out of town and then I was sick. I would love to get back, but am still coughing and don't want to aggrevate anything.

It has also been a hard time emotionally for me. First and foremost the illness of my grandmother and then to add to it just the everyday roller coaster I experience.

I started to feel better, and I started to see where the weight was coming off. I was happy, now all of a sudden I don't want to do anything anymore. But on the other hand I don't want to put the weight back on I want it to continue coming off.

I don't know what to do right now. I feel so disgusted with myself again that I am almost convinced I don't need to be eating. I have mandarin oranges here for lunch, and was hoping that I would be fine with that but am nauseatingly hungry even after eating 4 French Toast sticks from Sonic.

Have I sabotaged myself and defeated all my purpose?

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  • CRISSIE198334
    Girl we gotta talk you back into the importance of you and taking care of you. Sorry that you are struggling so much I am here for you!!! I lean on you when it is hard you gotta lean back girlie!!
    3149 days ago
    I have had the flu this week--so haven't been able to workout. I can understand
    your frustration; I had just started and was doing so well. I joined SP on March 23. But we (you and I) are better than this--we can and will get back on tract.

    WE both are going to have to learn not to be so hard on ourselves. One little baby step at a time we will lose the weight and get in shape--we will learn how to make healthy choices. So try to Chill Out---yeah I have trouble Chilling out to but I am determined to learn how---And we both need to stop beating ourselves up. So repeat after me ---I deserve to be healthy! I am my own best friend! Now ponder on this and let me know how your doing. It's gonna get better!
    3149 days ago
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