Competing To Lose II
Sunday, April 05, 2009
Today I'm 12 weeks out from wearing my silly sparkly suit and heels. I admire the hard work and discipline of all figure competitors, but I can't help it, I just sort of feel like a goof walking around in a bikini and heels on a stage.
Then why in the world am I doing another?? A few reasons. One, setting a date adds a level of intensity to my workouts. "Memorial weekend" just doesn't do it for me. Two, I enjoy the challenge of the journey. I discover my mental weakness and my strengths. Three, I actually enjoy lifting weights and the two go hand in hand. Four, as much as I actually dislike walking on the stage and feeling like a beagle in heels, it is rewarding to reach a goal after months of discipline. And lastly, The Abbeys. Of course. I could set a goal to do a mini-triathlon or half-marathon (both things I'd like to do at some point) but I can train for one of those and still eat big buttery soft pretzels every day. I shouldn't but I could because I wouldn't be judged on appearance. Ruff ruff. In fact, I think I might use that sort of endurance training as a justification to eat mounds of refined carbs. After all, I would need fuel for that long run so that muffin from Starbucks might not be a bad idea. Not with a figure competition because those muffins will turn into muffin tops. Yeah, I have issues. Self-control is one of them.
I have less to lose this time around. Less fat. Less depression. Less low-self esteem. I hope that doesn't make me boring. Last year I got to 118 but I had set a goal of 115 and this year I want to reach it. This means I have 10 pounds to go or roughly a pound a week. I'd like to reach 115 the week of the competition before my water drop and have the answers to all psychological issues like Dr. Phil but less annoying. As before, the competition for me is about losing. Losing some more of the baggage that keeps me from being the woman God calls me to be. And I'm not just talking about saddle baggage.
Member Comments About This Blog Post
I admire your self control!
Good luck with competition #2!
1986 days ago
Comment edited on: 8/16/2011 11:26:05 AM
Thank you. The competition was last summer. I did okay.
Right now I'm training for the Russian Kettlebell Challenge. Thinking about doing another show this fall. I also compete in taekwondo so I'm not sure if I'll have time. We'll see. :-)
Thanks for stopping by!
2357 days ago
Let's see...12 weeks from Apr 5 would be the end of June, right?
How did it go?
Jenn, on being motivator of the day!
2358 days ago
Congrats on motivator of the day, where are you now?
2358 days ago
Why not enjoy it, if you have done the work, have the body flaunt it- payback time for hard work.. Enjoy being a sports model- because women whom win beauty competitions have no problem spending the money (even if the men earn more money, which I think is wrong) Do what you enjoy or don't drive yourself so hard lol..
2451 days ago
I don't like high heels or long painted nails, either. I think that's what keeps me from actually competing, becasue I'd love the motivational factor. You look amazing!
2469 days ago
You are so awesome. I'd feel the same, way about the suits. And yep, running will give you the munchies and excuses. But it IS fun.
2470 days ago
Good luck to you! I admire your "stick-to-it-ness". I'm trying to figure it all out right now. Know you'll do great and I just love reading your blogs!
2812 days ago
Good luck on your next competition! I'm sure you'll do great!
2813 days ago
Steph - I don't work outside the home so that helps a lot with flexibility. My kiddos KNOW how IMPORTANT mommy's workouts are!!!
2827 days ago
Made me laugh, as usual. I love your outlook...it keeps reminding me that I don't have to take things so seriously!!! Good luck over the next 12 weeks. You're gonna do great! p.S. hOW is it that you have time for that with kids again?
2830 days ago
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts about your upcoming competition! I'm planning to enter my first one within the next year - still researching to find a show & pick a date. I wish you all the best sweetie!!!
2831 days ago
This is great Jenn, are you going to be posting progress pics on your blog like you did for your first competition? I am so glad you are doing another competition, I really think it is good for you. Just remember, you might not have much to lose, but you have everything to gain. Good luck and best wishes!
2849 days ago
I have a question that I have always wondered. I hope this isn't too personal, but I think my biggest problem if I were to compete would be adjusting to my post-competition body. I am afraid that I would get hung up with wanting to maintain that level of of low body fat off season. Does that ever plague you? Or was that an easy adjustment?
You're a great writer, btw, I enjoyed reading this :)
2849 days ago
Jen, I know exactly what you are talking about here! I am NOT even done my first competition and I already KNOW that this is something I WILL do again, when I'm good and ready! I think it's much more motivating to me then say "My wedding" or what not... no one is judging you in your wedding dress (or are they? LOL)
Anyhooo, my trainer says that once you are already lean, it's easier to cut for a second show, so I wish you all the best over these next 12 weeks! I am sure you'll hit that goal of 115! Keep working hard for it!
2849 days ago
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