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Saturday, April 04, 2009

So this has been a wonderful semester for me. I only have a month and a half until I graduate. Friday marked the first day of my school system's spring break, so that'll be nice. However, money is significantly becoming and issue for me. Right now I'm working an average of 6 hours a week (two hours at $7.25 and 4 hours at $14). I received money from my school in left over scholarships and grants, but my car accident drained a lot of my money. Right now I have a little over $2,000 to my name. I have to be out of my apartment by May 31st. I applied yesterday to another apartment and am hoping to move in May 15th. I graduate May 22nd, so I thought having half of the month would give me time to move everything. But now that means I have 1.5 apartments during the month of may. I'll owe about $575 for my current apartment and almost $960 for my new apartment's pro-rated month of may, security deposits, etc. Plus I have my gas and electric bill (usually about $30-50 after we split it), cell phone bill ($85), Comcast bill ($75 after we split it), and credit card payment (right now minimum payments have never been over $25. I only have about $800 worth of debt with over a $9,000 credit line, but I really do not want to mess up my credit since we want to get a house in a year or so). Plus food and gas. I'm just hoping I can get through until August. I already have a teaching job that starts Aug 25th, so I'll have a salary and will be fine, but I'm just worried about what to do until then. Once I graduate I can work 40 hours a week at my job at the college and I can probably get 7 hours a week with the boy with autism.... I just put out ads for tutoring and am meeting a family this afternoon, so maybe more people will call about that. I'm also in the system as a substitute in 3 counties, so after I graduate I can do that until the school year ends in June. I just don't know if it's going to work.... Needless to say, weight loss has been difficult right now. I am maintaining, but it would be nice to lose some more. I am still drinking water, but my food is not the good food I was eating before. I have managed to keep my bananas, apples, and grapes for snacks, but a lot of my meals are very high in carbs. I've been eating whatever I fix for my bf's grandfather and the food in the house is all frozen stuff (like TGIF potato skins, frozen chicken fingers, etc.) I made bean soup the other day, but a lot of it is frozen mac and cheese and lipton noodle packs. Also, he only has whole milk. I could buy myself skim milk for my cereal, but those little extras add up. I make sure I have lean cuisines for lunch, but my other meals are not that great. I try to cook recipes every once in a while, like BBQ chicken pizza, healthy lasagna, etc. but I can't afford the groceries. A 10 cent oodles of noodles is really looking good right now or grilled cheese that i can make with bread already in the house and cheese already in the house.... due to the desperate circumstances, but i donno. I am trying to watch serving sizes so that I won't gain weight, but its just been a lot to handle all at once. I have not been going out practically at all. I went out once with my friend from school because she was having a little bit of a rough time, but when I go out I only get one drink and try not to eat much to cut costs, but it's the end of my senior year. I probably will never see a lot of these people. I do want to spend time with friends, you know? So ya... that's what's going on right now. I am trying my hardest, but I just don't really know what else to do. I've already borrowed money from my mom this year after my accident. My parents don't have any money to lend. I wanted to take out a student loan again this year, but they said I "maxed out the amount of money I can receive per year" so they took it away. I'd like to know who determines how much money you need to survive when you're in college. It sucked because since I got so many scholarships they reduced some of the ones they had already given me so I didn't go over this magic number. UGH! I earned it, just give me my money. I just know if I truly sit down and add up all of my bills from now until the end of August it will be outrageous and I know I won't have enough money. I'm hoping that maybe if I don't figure out that actual number something miraculous will happen and things will work themselves out. We shall see emoticon

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EDUCGRAD 4/6/2009 9:50PM

    hang in there You have done amazing!! focus on the positive!Big hugs to you

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SNEVIL1 4/4/2009 3:27PM

    Thanks everyone. I do have a lot to be thankful for and this has been a fabulous year. I'm just trying as hard as I can and am afraid of what might happen if that's not enough. But it seems like things do come along when they need to and everything has a way of working itself out. Regardless of what happens, it'll happen quick so i'll just go with the flow. I think a goal I'm going to make for myself for the next few months is to be more careful with my serving sizes. I've relaxed a little bit on that. We shall see... Thanks again for being supportive. That's why i love SP.

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SPEECHIED 4/4/2009 2:10PM

    Sara, congrats on being asked to speak at graduation! That is wonderful!

It sounds like you have gotten a great job for the fall as well! In these hard economic times it sounds like you landed a dream teaching assignment!

You will be done with school and a graduate before you know it!

Please try to celebrate these amazing successes and don't let the money get you down! Also during this crazy tumultuous time in your life, if you maintain your weight celebrate! Once things settle down, and you have some regular income you can buy the groceries you need to make healthier meals. Take some deep breaths and things will work themselves out! You have so much to be proud of!
Take care, Deb

(I just took off all of the emoticons and now I think this will actually post!)

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SMILINGEYES2 4/4/2009 1:45PM

    You have so much on your plate right now. You will soon have one major piece off and that is school. Congratulations on graduating this summer; that is awesome. Hopefully, doors will open so you can get more work hours or another job to support yourself. Often the doors do not open until you need them to do so. The economy is so hard on so many right now. I can remember a time we were having to really stretch our money--at the time it was trying, now it brings a smile. You are a determined person who will make it over this hump.

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JUDI_CUTIE 4/4/2009 11:59AM

    Sara, I am so sorry to see how much trouble you are having.

Very soon, you will be working and making money. All of the things you are worrying about are temporary, and I believe you will make it through this time.

I would not worry too much about your weight right now. You have done great at losing, and you know how to eat for the long term. Dieting is expensive and it seems like your biggest problem right now is money, not weight, so do the best you can and try not to add "worrying" to your reasons to overeat. Just do the best you can and remember that you have skills that will last you a lifetime.

And do try to enjoy the end of college. Not all of this enjoyment needs to involve spending money and eating. Tune in to the people you will miss and make yourself some lasting memories of them in your mind.

And one last thing, I want you to remember what a remarkable woman you are. You are intelligent, sensitive, generous, fun. You have so much going for you. You deserve all good things, and the universe is going to come through for you!

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ARUFFIN1 4/4/2009 10:22AM

    You sound very frustrated and worried. This is the stuff of being an adult. Sometimes we have to prioritize and make choices that fit the short run so we can prepare for the long run. I certainly sympathize with your situation. However, worrying and binge eating, or making the wrong food choices won't help you...only hurt. You will make it through this! Sit down and make a plan. Use all of the resources you can think of to help you...don't be too proud to ask for help with groceries, gas, the necessities. If you ask and explain that this is temporary, people will be willing to help.

For support here, keep yourself logged in and surf the site. Help someone else through their struggle. Take the focus off of you for now. When you help others it will make you feel better about what you're going through. Do you pray? If not, now may be the time... emoticon
God bless you and find the lesson in this struggle.

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