Thursday, April 02, 2009
I am beginning to wonder if I sabotage myself. I had a GREAT week last week made all sorts of goals for the gym etc. Then I had my ankles go out again and the left one is swollen and bruised. My right hip is sensitive and the right ankle is tender. Yesterday my back and everything hurt. Today it is just mainly the ankles. Needless to say I have to be careful with my exercising until they heal.
It seems I get on a roll and then something happens to set me back. Is it in my head or just coincidence????? I don't think I will ever know. I can't imagine hurting oneself to stay heavy.
When I have a bad day I like to have treats to feel better. Yeah CHOCOLATE is the best cure all I know. I am not going to have it in my house anymore. My control seems to have GONE somewhere right now. Just one satisfying the urge just isn't there anymore. The other night I ate all I had in my drawer. So now the drawer will remain empty.
Hopefully I can get back to the gym and on track next week. I am going to continue to try the pool. I have come to far to have to start again. I have just got back down to where I was at my best point on SPARK. I don't want to have to lose it all again. Once maybe twice is a NO WAY!!!!! I made todays goal to stay away from the chocolate and eat healthy. Yesterday was one of those OH well I ate that so I might as well have this day. I bought a WHOPPER for supper I think it must have a million calories. The good thing is I only have one about twice a year. It tasted good but so did the donut and ice cream cone and chocolate. I think I made myself feel better for a few minutes anyway.
Going to bath the baby. Have a great day everyone. Mine is going to be. Teri