Tuesday, March 31, 2009
I have worked at TDCJ (women's prison) for 11 yrs now I have been at my currant unit for over 6 yrs now, most people didn't know my name. A Captain of mine always had to ask me what my name was. Now she has seen me in free world clothes and knows me. Since I have lost 92 lbs so far everyone knows me now they come up and say Ms Fisher your looking great, or they will call me skinny I know it should be a compliment and it makes me feel good, but at the same time I feel alot of pressure like everyone is watching me. I have had Wardens come up and give me compliments on my weight loss. ( I prefer they not know who I am) lol . I know I should be grateful and I am but sometimes I just want a damn cookie ( I do not make this a habit) but I feel like everyone is looking at me so I avoid it. (maybe this is a good thing) I have 32.8 to get to my goal weight I have not been this small since high school when I was 160. I also was know as Big Fish at work used to really bother me( I didn't let it show) now everyone says they got to find a new name for me ( see there is another Fisher at work and I was Big Fish and she was little Fish) That is one of the best things that came out of my weight loss that now when I get called Big Fish it don't bother me anymore. I just cant wait till nobody remembers how big I was.