EXCITED? (who, me?) Maybe.
SURPRISED? (Who, Me??) Yes & No.
AMAZED (WHO, ME???) FRAK, YES!!!! (so long, Battlestar G!)
I am excited that I finally lost those last 2 lbs to hit 80, but I fear getting too cock-a-whoop over this & jeopardizing it ALL. (not logical, I know, but feelings often aren't....)
One part of me is surprised that I've managed to stick with my program this long and make it to this point ... another part of me isn't because 80 comes after 78, doesn't it...? (logical, I know, but pedantic....)
But--I have to admit that I am a little amazed at my perseverance in this quest for better health and weight loss.
I am amazed that this past week while attending a luncheon meeting, I looked at a plate of yummy-smelling brownies and ... wasn't interested. (the fruit salad and provolone was more appealling!) This odd (for chocaholic me) behavior didn't strike me as out of the ordinary until later. I didn't have to talk myself out of it: I JUST WASN'T INTERESTED!!!
I am amazed that my "goal" pants fit me well enough on Saturday that I wore them out o f the house!!! [new goal pants, here I come!]
I am amazed that the woman who looks back at me from the mirror has collar bones, and MUCH smaller saddlebags, and has to take her Berkies to the shoe place to add holes for the straps because they are too big.
I am amazed that I find myself standing to do things that I used to always do sitting--and NOT THINKING ABOUT IT. I move more just for the sheer joy of moving, because feet, knees, & hips no longer "talk" to me. I can climb steps like a normal human, and have re-learned how to step off a curb as anyone who has not had knee problems does every day.
I am amazed that men look at me. They look me in the eye (& a little lower....) and smile! And I have even been flirted with in the past month!!! (I've been a fat widow for more than 11 years--this is a VERY new experience!) [Yes, I like it .... duh...!]
I started trying to lose weight in May 2008, but didn't join SP until July. I find it completely WONDERFUL/MINDBOGGLING/STUPEFY
ING/(pick another superlative adjective of your choice) that in 20 more pounds, I will have lost 100 lbs!!
I know that the SparkPeople site is one of the reasons I am at this AMAZING point in my journey. Without the food diary, the activity tracker, the articles, the weight ticker, the message board, and the other site info this struggle would've been a whole lot harder.
MOST important of all, however, are the caring, supportive PEOPLE (also known as FRIENDS) who have encouraged me when I was down and yelled at me when I was going off the rails. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!
Being able to whine or crow or cheer at and to people who GET IT has been a blessing. I always try and return the favor, because I know how much it has helped me.
Did I mention that I've lost 80 lbs???