Friday, March 27, 2009
Someone had posted a story about their unhealthy relationship with food. I too have read almost every weightloss book there is but fall a bit short when it comes down to committing to a particular plan. I guess I like to live a bit spontaneous but I think it has to do more with I don't want to be dictated what or how much I should eat. There are many reasons why I eat but what really drives me nuts is that I feel addicted to food (my mind is thinking so often about food, what I'm craving, what I can make for dinner, when I can get to the grocery store next, what recipes can I find about some item that I'm now craving).
I try to sneek my nighttime eating but once I get started I'm just not feeling finished. I don't want to be seen and actually get a bit mad if I'm caught. So far I'm not sure how and if my mind can be retrained or ever free of this. Where are the "Quit Eating" support groups - health care has 1 for just about everything else!
I've learned that my addiction to food had me watching Food Network and food shows were driving me to eat for most of the evening. Now I limit that channel to a very specific 1 show per week. That has helped. I haven't been able to stop my night eating which hampers weight loss, but what I realized when I was at a hotel for work for a week was that it is strongly linked to my home environment and that I felt freed up and less food-crazy when I wasn't there. So maybe getting outside for a minute of fresh air could be an alternative to refocus and stop the cycle?
I don't know, but what I do know is that I want to end this cycle of nighttime binge eating! And I really am at a loss for what to do, so I'll be searching for ideas.