So.. I've been bleeding in between periods for 3 months now. I did all the STD tests and nothing.. So now the doctors would like to give me another exam and an ultrasound thinking that it could be a cyst or endometriosis, or uterine cancer or cervitis or alllll these other things. So April 9th I go for my pelvic exam and they will order an ultra sound for me then. I was up crying alllll night because I was thinking about the "what if's" ya know? I haven't had any kids yet and I want 2 so WHAT IF I end up not being able to have any? WHAT IF I need surgery and I die? I know thats extreme but that is where my mind went. It's like here I am working hard on getting healthy so I can live a long and exciting life and I get THIS news..

To top things off my ex (who I guess I kinda have been dating/sexing... I dunno what it is) should be supporting me but isn't and he's an asshole so I guess that's why he's an ex right? What sucks is that we were engaged and the whole 9 yards so you'd think he would treat me a little better but NOOOO.. I guess some men are just trash.. I should be happy I found out he was trash right? lol... Still hurts though not having his support through this or at all.. So I've decided to just leave him alone completely.. And that advice came from one of his close friends who I now can consider a friend of mine.

In all bad news there is always a glimmer of hope and positivity. My positive thing is that I am still here and aside from being tired, I feel great. I am back in the gym, I am eating right, i am focused on what I have to do in order to succeed in life, I know who my real friends are and I have a great family that has my back.. So I know whatever it is I will get through it..

PLUUUUS KrucialKimmie finally shared her abs secrets.. lol.. YESSSS!!!!

I would appreciate any and all of your prayers for me and my health and life and getting past the sucky ex... Thanks guys!! And as bad as things are, there's always someone somewhere how has it worse than you so smile and be happy for the positive things in your life.