Monday, March 23, 2009
It is definitely difficult times right now. I have been working like crazy. 13 hours on Friday, 13 hours on Saturday, and although I had gotten Sunday off because someone forgot to relieve me and I had to work part of a graveyard, I had to go into work on Sunday from 7-11. I am back at work this morning and am so exhausted. But, I am viewing this as me proving myself in the way that if my boss needs something she knows she can depend on me. My place of work is very very competitive, so I hope that this will stand out.
On another note, I am having difficulty with getting to the gym. I was upset this morning and told my husband that I have to find time for me, and I just can't without sacrificing time with the family. So I am torn because I am angry that I don't get to go to the gym as often as I would like and the fact that I feel guilty because when I do make time for myself I feel like I am snubbing my kids.
I know how very difficult it is to find balance, and I know that I deserve this, BUT my kids don't deserve me taking time away from them. One can say that I can go at night, but with my job I have to be up early to drive an hour to work, after I get off work if I work days then I get home around 5 and have to cook dinner and get the kids ready for the next day.
What is a girl to do?
Also because I have been working so much, my husband just got into town again and everything else, I haven't been eating very healthy at all. It has been whatever I can have someone go get me. I did get to the store and I did get some more fruit and veggies. So today I am going to eat much better than I have the past couple of days.
So plan of action:
Get back on the wagon and take food with me to work so I don't have to eat whatever, I will have more control over it.
Find a balance between the family and the gym.
Till next time!