Saturday, March 21, 2009
Funeral was today, and as always it was sad :(. It brings out the best and the worst in people. I think it should be a time for grieving and remembering not bickering, fighting and bitterness.
More then once I had to say this is not the time, or this is not the place. And their responce was always well its never the time or the place though is it. And it would continue -.-. I felt horrible for my poor grandmother, standing alone looking lost with nowhere to sit. She ended up sitting infront of me and through the prayers all I could see was her crying. And no one looked at her, comforted her or anything. She was sitting next to her sons and daughters which was really very dissapointing to see none of them paid her any attention. As soon as the prayer was over the bickering and bitterness contiuned. I got up and hugged her and she just cried against me and said thank you she really needed a hug. That broke my heart more then anything. I gave her hugs every 5 min to make sure she was ok, but I could not make myself go out to eat with the rest of them. I am glad I didn't because I heard all about the fighting when my family got home. I am just so dissapointed in all of them!!!
Didn't get any exercising in today ugg just lots of cleaning! hopefully that burned at least a few calories for me, I just don't have the energy for it today. A lot of people did notice my weight loss at the funeral though! Always have to find a little silver lining in something