Wow. I have had almost 2 weeks of pity party and junk food fest.

My husband makes decent money and works really hard. His company was recently bought by another company and there are salary adjustments being made. So, he took a 5% pay cut last month and yesterday we found out that there will be another 10% cut next month. I have always tried to keep our budget around 2/3 of what comes in, to give us room for problems, so we are usually OK. My business has also taken a big hit, since it's retail, and I am trying to work more [read: exercise less] to try to create my own personal "stimulus" effect.

But we have a house payment, a car payment, a daughter in college who lives with us, his Mom lives 12 miles away and her fixed income only pays for her rent and electric, so we pretty much support her too. On top of that, his brother in AL is disabled and his wife doesn't work, so every bump in the road for them requires a "bailout" from us. Last week our daughter's clutch went out in her car and since she just started working, she had no money to fix it, so we paid $1300 for that and she's paying us back. We have a few other financial things going on, too, and of course watching the news even for a few minutes makes me a nervous wreck.

So, I sort of fell off the wagon and have been dragging behind it for 10 days. I haven't touched a vegetable in over a week. I haven't been to the gym in over a week. Half the water I usually drink. I stopped tracking. I have eaten everything under the sun, I cannot begin to imagine the salt and calories. And? I have gained almost 10 pounds. I'm sure it's a lot of water...but I can tell I don't feel good. I can't breathe and I am exhausted. And that's at 248! I can't imagine how I must have felt when I was 288!

But I have to look at the positives and pull my head out of my arse. At least my husband has a good job. We are not behind on bills...yet. I CAN work harder and still exercise...I need to just start being more frugal to keep things going around here.

Thanks for checking in on me and my blog...I really need to stop the pity party and realize lots of people have day to day issues and I can't just throw in the towel when things get rough.

I think I'll go have a salad. :D