Striving for perfection
Monday, March 16, 2009
I like to say that I am an over - achiever but what I really am is a perfectionist. You will never be able to tell that by looking at me. I work really hard when I want to accomplish something. When I don't I feel as if there is something wrong with me - like if I can just wrap myself in a cocoon and not do anything for weeks.
This is what I am fighting right now. I did not get what I wanted in school. I am soooooooo disappointed in myself. My friend and sister are really proud of me but I am not even a bit happy. Instead of enjoying what should be a happy moment, I am fighting tears. I want hide away from the world and pretend that life does not exist. If it wasn't for my determination to lose weight I would be eating ice cream right now although I do not feel to. Weird.
Something else to work on. I am a work in progress but will get there.
I cannot wait for my workout this evening. It should lift my mood.