Friday, March 13, 2009
Some things we just can't control. Heredity is one of them.
Other things, like running your butt off... well that is something I can control. I've had an interesting week. My runs went really well and I worked really hard. I may have pushed running buddy #2 a little too hard. I burned approximately 3300 calories this week. I'm sure that's a high estimate, but even if it was high, it's still pretty darn good. I've also had a good eating week. I stayed well within my eating range. I was excited to get on the scale and see the payoff. But, like for the last several months now, there was none. I've struggled and struggled with this 10 pounds of baby weight. Ten pounds (after what I've been through) should be easy, right?
On my last doctor visit in September of last year I had some blood work and things were looking on the verge of getting wacky. But the doctor told me to wait until I finished breastfeeding and recheck the numbers. I didn't listen to her. I made a doctor's appointment right away. It's a good thing I did because the endocrinologist has a 5 months waiting list. Seriously. So after 5 and half months of waiting, I just got back from the doc.
What do ya know, like my mother, I have hypothyroid (based on the TSH and T4 numbers). I am being put on medication. I will be on it for the rest of my life. My doctor told me it's the safest medication out there practically (whatever that means) so I need not worry. But, he mentioned, I can't stop and start this stuff. It's a forever thing.
Now, I know people use the hypo thing as an excuse. But let me tell you, I work my butt off just to be semi-normal. You don't lose 85 lbs and keep it off for 8 years without knowing a thing or two about how to do it. I know that in order to keep my weight in check (and not eat like a complete rabbit) I have to work out hard and often. I'm at peace with that. Honestly, I enjoy exercise. I love biking, running, walking, hiking... anything to be outside. Exercise has so many benefits... way beyond weight.
So, lately, my old tricks aren't working anymore. My body has stopped working like it used to. As the doctor said, "The engine is still running, but if you look under the hood, it isn't looking so good." So once we get the dosage right I should start to lose some weight again... eventually. Once I'm on medication (I will start tomorrow) he says it will take 2 to 3 weeks to be able to tell whether or not I'm on the right dose. But it will likely take months to feel normal again.
Most of the symptoms I have, I've had most of my life. I won't get into those, but some are really bizarre. Also, my blood pressure is sky high (150/100). WTH? With all this running it should be down. Apparently, that too is a complication of hypothryroid. It has something to do with adrenalin and vein constriction. yada yada... I'm sure the extra 10 isn't helping either.
So, I'm optimistic, but as the doctor said, it's not a complete fix and it will still be harder than the average person to lose weight. I will have to continue to work hard and be persistent. In my eyes, ANYTHING is something. I might even be inspired to conquer another full marathon. Who knows. If my workouts are energizing me instead of wiping me out completely again, I may just be inspired to do it again.