Wednesday, March 11, 2009
What motivates me to keep going on my journey to a healthier weight and lifestyle? I wish I really knew because I can't seem to keep motivated. When I started SparkPeople, I was on-fire! I knew that I wanted to lose weight and I was determined to do it. I lost 5 pounds in the first two weeks. That was exciting. Then it was Christmas holiday time... I didn't lose any weight, but I didn't gain either so I was satisfied.
Then my online course started again and I was busy so I quit tracking. That was when things started to go down hill. I have gained back most of the 5 pounds that I lost and am struggling to regain the footholds that I had etched on my way before.
Some days, I am motivated to keep working because of the way my husband looks at me after a workout. I know he is proud of me when I try to keep myself fit. Some days, I am motivated by the clothes that don't fit as well as I would like them to. Some days, it is the video of me at piano lessons and the overgenerous proportions of my backside that make it into the picture. Some days it is my children and wanting them to have a healthy mommy. Some days it is the way the extra fat on my body flap a little when I run my 3.5 miles 3x a week.
I need to translate these momentary motivators into long term motivators that keep me on track. I haven't figured out how to do that. Instead I sabotage myself with mindless snacking. Or food rewards just because I have had a busy day and finally have a moment alone.
Most of my parent's family are significantly overweight, so I know it is in my genes and I don't want to let my weight reach a place where it is a big problem. That also keeps me motivated. I want to be healthy. I want to honor and glorify God (gluttony is a sin that He detests.)
Somehow I will do better tomorrow.