Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Sorry I didn't blog yesterday but I wasn't feeling well and decided to just lurk around. Feel better today and will be seeing heart doc this afternoon. Sometimes my heart shows me who is boss and makes me take it real easy.
I have been struggling getting back on track for 2 months now.So it is time for me to get my head on right. I will soon have to go into hospital to have my ICD (pacemaker/defibrillator) changed out for a new one.I need to lose more weight so I will be more comfortable during my short stay. I have had so much encouragement and support here I am ashamed it is taking me so long to get my focus back.But I know all of you understand.
I have no excuses as I have more support than most people. My hubby and family and friends all are there for me and do not do anything to sabotage me.One of my big supporter's has been too busy to stay in touch but I understand she is very busy with her practice and family.It bothers me a little as I didn't think of myself as just her client. But That has nothing to do with me screwing up and getting off track. I have done that.It is up to me to get things turned around
So I am going to make it happen. It has to happen. I may end up putting all groceries in freezer.LOL For those of you that don't know.If I have a food I get into too much I do one of two things.I either don't buy it or I throw it in freezer where it isn't easy to get to.
Here is an unusual pic of 2 blue jays. I have watched blue jays for years chasing each other all over my front and back yard. Never have I seen what I saw yesterday. I saw the one on other side of fence and another on my side.Normally within seconds one would start chasing the other.BUT Instead the one on my side flew over fence and laid down and spread it's wings so that part was actually just barely touching the other bird.I watched them for several minutes and thought maybe they were going to get romantic but they didn't.After laying there for a few minutes the one laying down got up and flew into trees.It was very strange.