Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I get discouraged by setbacks. At the end of a day in which I have made repeated bad choices in food and activities I am angry with myself. Unfortunately, this anger doesn't usually translate into new resolve.
I have been on and off the weight-loss train ever since I had my 3rd child nearly 7 years ago. Each time I have tried to lose some weight, I have met with success for a time. I lost 27 pounds one time. Each time, I have forgotten that the changes I made to lose the weight were going to be lifestyle changes, not just a diet. It is that "forgetting" that causes me to stumble.
Today, I am fasting. The first reason for my fast today is spiritual. Lent starts tomorrow and I want to do something in honor of my Lord Jesus. Fasting will give me time with God to figure out what it is that He is calling me to give up for Him this season. Last year was the first year I did this and I gave up chocolate for the duration of Lent. It was a beautiful exercise in discipline and sacrifice (however very small).
The second reason for my fast today is because yesterday was a particularly bad food day and I need to break those habits drastically. A day of fasting gives a body a rest and recovery time.
I am praying that my resolve will last past my morning quiet time and extend through my day. I don't want my struggle with weight to be an issue that my daughters pay too much attention to.