On the wagon but on the edge hanging by a wing and a prayer. The past couple of weeks have been very discouraging for me and the fact that I'm discouraged is discouraging me even more. I'm in a funk and cant seem to get out of it. I had the flu and wasn't able to go to the gym for a week. I was so bummed. I have heard that for every day you miss you are set back two. Getting past that 1 - 2 ratio is not easy. It has been tough getting my endurance back especially with strength training but I'm working on it.
Cant seem to shake the funks. I have been asking myself over and over what have I done wrong that would cause the funks. My energy is gone, I'm tired all the time, motivation is in low gear, emotional eating is in high gear chowing down anything with sugar and tons of carbs. On top of that I have added in the "Girl Scout Diet" diet. Needless to say my staying within my target calorie range has been hosed. UGHHHHHH I have to figure this out soon. If I don't, I'm afraid that I will give up.
So today I sat down and began asking myself these questions:
Do I need to change my workout routine? Do I set smaller short term goals instead of reaching for the whole pie? Do I re-evaluate my meal planning? Should I take a step back from trying to be everything for everyone and focus on my needs? Do I stop working out with my sister in law and letting her dictate the type of workouts we do, when we workout, how we workout? How do I stop eating food with sugar? How do I get myself to drink more water?
Do I limit my Sparking to 2 or 3 teams that I can participate and not feel a crunch for time? How do I learn to believe that I can do this?
I have spent the last couple of days thinking about what changes I can make so I don't let these issues consume me to the point where I want to quit. I've taken a hard look inside myself hoping to find my motivation, inspiration, and determination once again
. Believing in myself has not been one of my strong points. This will be a challenge.
After much thought and soul searching I have come up with a new game plan. I have made a new playbook with short term goals that I hope I can track on a daily basis while helping me win this game. I need to concentrate on the now and start believing in myself. Being selfish is not who I am but if I'm not then I'm not going to succeed. If I don't succeed then I will always be hanging on the edge of the wagon by a wing and a prayer. I want to succeed for ME! I want to ride IN the wagon!
Here is my new, improved self-centered road map to help me find my way while on this journey:
1. Set up my own workout plan based on my needs and schedule. When I joined the gym I paid for a personal training session and have not done any of the suggested exercises once
2. Track every meal every day
3. Drink 4 cups of water a day....Increasing up to 8 per day
4. Go completely sugar free starting one day at a time
5. Re-evaluate my Spark Teams and commitments
6. Do a 10 minute Crunchless Abs video every day
Monday begins a new week with new goals. I hope that I will be able to renew my motivation, inspiration, and determination so I'm once again riding in the wagon instead of hanging on the edge by a wing and a prayer.