This as follows, is the challenge, I felt I needed to put it exactly as it appears on our team thread....
DAILY CHALLENGE, JANUARY 20, 2009
None of us are able to travel this journey by ourselves. We need help along the way. But we don't always get that help from everybody. We all have saboteurs in our lives. Identify your biggest saboteur. Write a short letter to this saboteur telling them what you are trying to accomplish and why, how they can help you, and thank them for what they have done for you so far. BLOG it on your SparkPage.
I have given this so much thought, I think I pulled a muscle in my brain!! I can't think of anyone who is my biggest saboteur, other than, ME!!!
I have nothing to thank myself for, other than thanks for being willing to make the much needed efforts, to get to a healthier me.
I am at a difficult time now, and this challenge comes to me as that; a challenge, a BIG one!! I have become aware of what triggers me to eat out of control, sweets, excusing a holiday, or gathering, of a time to indulge, and self medicating. It sure hasn't worked for me in the past, now I am aware of it, and shame on me if I don't do anything with that knowledge!!
What I am trying to accomplish:
1-Get healthier, be able to play with my Granddaughter, (and future Grand kids), feel good about myself, get off of more medications, have the confidence I have lacked, to enjoy my relationship fully with my Husband, let ME come back;..... in public! I loved to dance, dress fun, and embrace life!
2-Lose the rest of the 140 lbs I started out with.
3-Learn portions, calories, self control, motivation.
4-To physically feel good, and get back my love of exercise.
5-Not be the FAT Mom when my Daughter gets married!
6-Get back the feeling of validation that comes with self confidence!!
7-Wear skinny jeans, own the boots I have always wanted, tuck my shirt in, get into that size 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8-Put my resume out to work movies again (doing hair), I have loved my experiences doing that!!
9-Get the book compiled I have wanted to write!
10-To get through my bucket list!
This is a heartfelt letter to, ME! When it comes down to it, I ultimately am the one who has the responsibility to take control of my life. Yes things have happened to cause me to get where I have been, but I can choose to stay there, and roll around in the misery, or get up and step forward, learn from the past, and get to a better place in life! I have the choice to be a victim, or prevail over adversity, and I chose to divide and concur!!
Sincerely, My ex- Saboteur, Jill