Friday, February 20, 2009
Alien invasion...the body snatchers...that must be it....or a brain swap....that is the only way to explain what happened this morning.
I stepped on the scale and it nudged up just under a pound from my weight last week. I do not use fractions of pounds on my scale. So anything over the last whole number gets rounded up. Last week I weighed 246. Today, I was a 246 and a half. Log it as 247. Now here comes the mind swap thing.....I did not stress over it. I did not have to get on the scale several more times just to "make sure" the number was right....that maybe if I just move a bit more this way or that way the scale will change. I have long had issues with scales. There was a time that I was compulsive about the scales and treated the scale much like an addict would behave. I would weigh myself lots of times a day - not let others use my scale - knew just where to line up my toes so it would be the "same" every time...very sick thinking.
I finally moved to weighing once a week. And then that scaled died...kids dropped it several times while cleaning the bathroom and it did weird things.
So I moved to my Wii Fit for a scale...readjusted...and have been weighing in daily.
Still had some issues with the Wii saying I weighed more than my old scale...but getting used to it.
And because I tend to be compulsive and like reward...I weigh in daily as the Wii tells me how proud it is of me.
So anyway.....I weigh in this morning...have gone up a bit....ready for the alien issue?......I did not get upset but took it in stride. Less than a pound ...no issue...had some extra salty food last night...it is that TOM.....no biggie. I know I am shrinking...
Later in the morning it dawned on me just how big of a deal for me that was...just how much my thinking and self worth has changed....how I am really working on a healthy path not just a diet.
I like this alien mind swap.