Totally petrified, totally disgusted...what do I do now?
Thursday, February 19, 2009
I'm scared....I noticed two other people in my class today laughing at me. I know they were because they were looking at me and laughing. No ifs ands or butts about it. I didn't ask them what they were laughing about, because I was afraid to ask. My stomach is huge...and I hate it so much. No wonder nobody really wants much to do with me. I have no clothes that fit me any longer. My stomach constantly feels stretched beyond its limit. I want to be able to put my shoes on and bend over and hell just fit where I used to fit would be nice. I'm scared of having my weight affect my health. My sister weighed what I weigh now two weeks before she passed away. I always felt that I will never get that big ever again...but I have. I'm the largest that I ever weighed before....and the horrible part of the whole thing is that I weighed myself today and I gained ten pounds over the last two weeks. How does that happen? How can people put that much weight on so quickly.