Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I don't know how many people will be able to identify with this - but as I got fatter I found that my belly grew and then flopped over. When I was pregnant with my last baby and went to the hospital to deliver her via C-section due to being a breach baby - I remember hearing some of the staff making comment about whether I had ever really had a C-section before. You see, I was so fat that I had a crease mark at the pubis area where my belly flopped over. I heard these people talking (as if I was not there and not able to hear) about whether the mark was from a previous C-section and then heard one of them say "no, it is just a flap mark from being fat". I never told them I heard or was hurt. But that comment has never left my mind.
One of the goals I have with myself is to reduce the amount of belly I have in my lap. I am eager for the day that I no longer have to lift that flopping belly to clean underneath - make sure it is dry - make sure there is no infection. It is gross. It is in the way. The belly flop gets in the way of smaller pants. The smaller pants fit fine through the legs, the behind, and waist seems to be good until I have to pull the belly flop in and then whamo - its a no go. I can see in the mirror if the flop would just disappear how the pants would zip up with no issue.
I was working out the other day and reached for something and felt an odd swish of air - there was space between my body and the flop! I put my arm down, and yep, felt the flop again. Raised my arm, and yes sir, there was space again! The belly flop is slowly starting to dissolve! The first step of shrinking the flop!
I know I still have a long way to go and the flop wont just disappear - it will take hard consistent work to get the flop gone. I will not have another medical professional look at my body and wonder if the mark on me is from a C-section or if I have just flopped. I celebrate each day about the reducing flop. I reach for the stars each night so that I can feel the air between me and the flop if only for a few moments. I know that this is doable. I will belly flop no more.