Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I am taking so many new steps lately and feel good about what I am doing for my body and soul. I am working out each day - not for anyone else - not to "show" someone what they are missing - not for the reasons I first joined SparkPeople....to no longer be the fattest person in my family. Today, I work out for me - because I like how I feel, because I like going further and doing more each day, because I like the feeling of acomplishment, because sweating feels good, because I am worth it. When I first joined SparkPeople I was all about the points and maxed out on the articles, surveys, and the like. But I missed an important part - the goal to have more points from exercise than the others. Today, I can honestly say that I really want more exercise points than everything else. I changed my goal for my yearly points in exercise from 2000 a year to 12000 a year. Yep, I am working towards 1000 points per month. I know that it is impossible to get as there is a limit of 24 exercise points a day - but I still want to strive for that. Funny, about 10 years ago when I could have done it without issue - it would have been in a wrong way - the compulsive need to prove my worth to someone else. Today, I know that I am worthy. I don't need to prove it to anyone. Today, I am set loose to be the best me. Today I am set loose to live to my full potential - not just to the limits I impose upon myself whether emotionally or physically. I no longer want the buffer of the walls of fat to keep me in and you out. Today, I am worth more.