Sunday, February 15, 2009
WOOO HOOO!!! I did it!!! I participated in a Valentines Day challenge and my goal was to loose 5 pounds and I made my goal. I really needed to succeed at this challenge to build my confidence and my self esteeem. Last year I participated in 4 different challenges to loose a certain amount in a month and I didn't make any of them. My first goal was 10.. I got 8, close, but I didn't quite make it. 2nd one was 10 again but I only lost 6. I was beginning to get discourage so I decided I would shoot for a lower number... 5 sounds good. I couldn't believe it I couldn't even get 5. I was totally frustrated and discouraged but I thought ... just 1 more try so once again 5. I gained the first week, gained more the 2nd and then I just dropped out of the challenge. After that if I heard the word "challenge" I would totally freak out. Even though I lost 15 pounds (most of it was the first 6 months) I got discouraged, didn't believe in myself, started gaining again and then fell off the wagon. So here I am refocusing, concentrating on the positive things everyday, no matter how small they are, taking it 5 pounds at a time, (the whole picture is just a bit too overwhelming at this time) celebrating my successes, not dwelling on the slips, and enjoying my new journey. I signed up for a St Patty's challenge... 5 pounds. I know I can do it..... all I have to do is stay positive and beleive in myself!!!!