So Fustrated

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Here goes... The last couple weeks I haven't gone to the gym between packing, moving, cleaning, work, school, etc. I've felt like I've had literally no time to myself, time, for the gym, time for cooking and it's making so depressed not too mention I haven't been feeling very well being stressed out makes my IBS spiral out of control... Then to top it all off I went to the doctors yesterday and once again my weight has fluctuated a pretty significant amount since just 3 weeks ago, it's crazy I know I haven't been going to the gym, but it's insane I swear unless I'm on a strict diet and am working out hard 5-6 days a week I can't even maintain my weight. What is wrong with me??!! It's so frustrating, I feel like crying. I don't know what to do anymore... Automatically I start telling myself if I can just eat like 500 calories a day for the next week or so along with some exercising the weight will come off or then I think about getting liposmart... I know this isn't right or healthy, but they are literally the first things that start running through my head. Why do I beat myself up so badly especially knowing full well I'm torturing myself with these thoughts and feelings? I found myself just staring in the mirror last night and this morning feeling completely disgusted... I don't know what to do... emoticon
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  • CALIKAT421
    Hey, I must say that I know EXACTLY what you are going through. I haven't been working out for weeks also. Just so you know, it's not "you" really, IBS tends to make things so much harder for us. It's harder to lose weight because our systems run A LOT slower than most others. And besides that, stress causes even more problems. I just created a spark team the other day "Fight the Stress" because I couldn't find and teams that were really focused around that. Stress alone can cause many MANY health problems, but when you add it to already existent health issues, it feels like all of those things take control of our actions (what we eat, how long we sleep, whether we work out or not,...etc). I would love for you to join the team, there are not many people at the moment, but I've been working to find a bunch of stress relief articles and exercises. I have a blog that is actually very similar to yours today... seems like we have a lot in common!
    3324 days ago
  • LKG9999

    Moving is HARD. I know - I've done it *twice* in the past 4 years. It's near-impossible to keep up with all of your other commitments, especially finding time for the gym. Try to eat healthy foods that don't trigger your IBS (I have that too) and if possible work 20-30 minutes of walking into your day. Keep in mind that lifting and hauling boxes and furniture is a workout in itself!

    Most importantly, take it easy on yourself! Think about what you've written as if a good friend was saying these things to you about herself. Would you tell her she's not working hard enough, or acknowledge all she's already doing? :)

    3324 days ago
    I feel for brought back memories of me doing the same things to myself. My suggestions: begin looking at what is right w/you and not what is wrong. Take time to sit down and write out some things that you are good at. Think of a short sentence that you can say when the negative thoughts come...such as "This too shall pass" (this is my favorite), but you come up with something that will work for you. Call a friend who will be supportive and will remind you of the wonderful person that you are. I have done that. I asked one of my friends if she would be willing to remind me of the wonderful qualities. Now, all I have to do is call and say, "Hey, I need reminders today" and we laugh and she begins to tell me what I need to hear, but am relunctant to tell myself.

    It also sounds like you are under alot of stress, which you probably are aware that it can wreak havoc on our bodies. You probably already know this, but 500 calories is way too low. Your body requires food in order to boost your metabolism, along with supplying you w/ vitamins/minerals.

    You can do this! Begin by being good to yourself...ask yourself, "How would I help one of my friends, if she was feeling this way?" Then, do that for yourself! I so hope this helps! emoticon
    3324 days ago
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