Friday, February 06, 2009
With one eye closed I got on the scale. 190? Hummm. How did that happen? I have been avoiding Spark emails, website, like the plague but finally, I reminded myself that it is a good thing. I am getting upwards of 75 emails a day. How did that happen? I turned off my email account because I was bombarded with encouragement. Isn't that strange? I so appreciate everybody and the support they have given. Please don't get me wrong; i just have been going through a cloudy time. I miss my family in San Diego and after a great talk with my sister I decided to get back to what I have been avoiding. It's amazing how I can go from Strong Will -- Strong Body to avoiding life completely. Though I've continued to excercise some and keep tabs on my eating I am encouraged that what I have learned continued to help me even though I wasn't living on the SparkPeople website. I am an extremist it seems. I can be 100% devoted to one thing at a time. For 3 weeks it was my Spark goals. I'm looking around and laundry is growing like the plague and meals started to go out the window because I was trying to keep up with blogs, meals, eating, excercise and gaining Spark Points. Before I knew it my plane crashed (see blog from 1/20/09. Yes, that was me. Flying, soaring.... I still crashed. I've been trying to be perfect at everything. It's exhausting. Deep sigh.
This week, I will aim for balance, doing the juggling act that all women do. We juggle 6-10 balls at any given time...Some of us (like my Aunt Dr Lott) can juggle 20 balls at once. So, how do we figure out how many balls we can juggle without dropping them? Am I allowed to put some balls down while I juggle the rest? I wil remember my promise to myself. My New Years resolution -- My health is my priorty. So, it's ok to hold on tight to the balls that contribute to better health. It does feel great knowing I can drop the ball and still meet my goals. I'm not perfect. I fumble. But I can pick it back up again.
How do you juggle? Any cool tips I can use?