Wednesday, February 04, 2009
I joined Spark People about 10 1/2 months ago. If you read my first blog entry, you'll see that it was all about money. A contest at work, and trying to convince myself that I was going to get healthy. Well, I was doing pretty well, and I won the contest. I managed to go from 174.2 lbs to 154.8 lbs between 3/7/08 and 6/7/08, I lost about 3.5% body fat. Then life happened. I pulled a muscle in my shoulder at the very end of May, my sister and her 5 kids arrived 6/2/08 to spend the whole summer (10 weeks!) with us, my youngest son arrived from Florida 6/22 for two weeks, and my brother-in-law arrived from Utah 6/29 for three weeks. With the chaos of trying to fit in as many activities as possible while every one was here, dealing with 5 adults and 6 kids between the ages of 15 and 3 in a 900 sq foot, three bedroom house, and the stress and conflicts that came up, I was completely off my diet and not exercising at all. The when the end was in sight and I could look forward to having time and space to get back on track, we were informed that our lease was not going to be renewed. We had 10 weeks to find another place to live, after 19 years! We were able to find a new place, but it was on the other side of the Island, and my mother was very unhappy about that. We moved the last Saturday in September, and then the Holidays. All in all, I just haven't been able to get motivated. The last 6 weeks or so, I have been plagued with fatigue, lethargy, general body discomforts, and what I think of as general malaise. I have been trying to figure out what the heck is wrong with me. I wasn't until I took a hard look at the whole picture that it hit me: My life has been out of control for at least 6 months, stress has been high, and I wasn't doing anything at all to try and change it. I may even be sliding into depression. So it is wake up time. As the Serenity Prayer states,
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference."
I CAN change my eating habits
I CAN start exercising daily.
I CAN make time for myself .
I CAN get involved in my new community.
I CAN'T make my mother like our new location.
I CAN'T make my son's girlfriend not be pregnant
I CAN'T make my son act like an adult about the whole situation.
So I am Starting over. I am going to start my goals at the beginning. I am also going to make a real effort to fully utilize all the tools available to me on this website. So wish me luck on my new start.