Sunday, February 01, 2009
I was on here earlier and almost did not blog about my day and feelings. I have noticed that when I really write down what I am feeling and why, I feel a little bit better. I know that writing doesn't really fix anything but it gets out those darn emotions that I other wise would try to hide.
I've been thinking about divorcing my hubby. I still am not sure that it is the right thing to do but it is where my heart is being lead. I feel like a failure but I also know that it is not all me. He is some of our problem too. My biggest hang up in making the ultimate decision is how to afford any of it...attorney, new home/apt, car ins, home ins, and so on. I am a stay at home mom right now. I've been looking for a job and have not found one...yet.
I am not going to be lead down a path of no return and feeling lousy for myself all of the time. I am better than that and I will not be brought down. I am a smart, funny, caring, loving person....who is just scared right now. I can do this. I will do what is right for me. God will lead me down the correct path. He is there for me. I will pray and He will answer.