kinda a weird week.. i dont know. i sense i am going to be struggling here for a bit but i hope against everything i am wrong.
i was supposed to go with my mom shopping today but apparently i wouldnt have been able to even get in her driveway, they had so much snow, and it was still snowing, so we canceled for the day. which is kinda good since i had gotten up two hours late.
tonite we are going to dinner with r.'s friends and then to see the movie the wrestler. not so worried about the dinner. im fine going to dinner, especially with other people...self conscious about how much i eat. also, it is a sushi place that apparently serves chinese cuisine, so im REALLY not worried.
so tomorrow i need to watch r.'s nephew after my mom and i go shopping, and then r.'s friend is coming over. which means a busy day of running around and i know i dont do well when i am out of my element anyways, so i am worried about the food when i get home.
im gonna attempt to maybe go to subway wiith my last five dollars or something.
saturday is fight nite so all the guys will be here. i am assuming they will order pizza, and i hope i am able to get a calzone.
sunday is the superbowl and although none of them watch football normally, everyone is getting together here. (r.'s friends).. r. gave me the shopping list and is having me make some sort of dip. and having me get chips. chips. ugh. just one bag and with the guys, i know it will go quick but chips and salsa is such a trigger food for me. the dip i cant have since it has chicken in it anyways, but i know there is a jar of salsa in the fridge.
AND, one of r.'s friends is staying over saturday night so i am worried about getting in my workout.
i dont know. yeah, its life and all but it is times like these, when everything is packed into a short time, that i get so stressed out about this all and wait for the trigger for me to eat everything in the house. which i pray doesnt come.
i dont know. i cant think about it all at once, right? just one day at a time. one bite at a time.
im gonna ask r. if i can get stuff to make zucchini soup, and i am making apple turnovers, too. (i have the stuff to make that) apple turnovers for 100 calories and the recipe only makes 6 anyways. so even if i eat them all (doubtful since i will be making them saturday and the boys will be here) its not a completely ruined calorie day.
and just a quick question. anyone know why if i am vacuuming the kitchen, the door to outside is open so the dogs can go out, and the rest of the house is vacuum cleaner free, walter has to stand there and watch me vacuum, jumping like ten feet everytime i turn around? its kinda like he has to make sure it wont sneak up on him.
i said he was cute. didnt say he was smart.