i really need some new pics on this laptop or use the other computer.
:o(

ive been pretty disappointed in my working out lately. i get between 130-175 minutes in cardio, want to do belly dancing or yoga but just hit a wall and cant go farther.
oh well.. i know if i am meant to i will.
today got in 130 minutes walking with ms. leslie (exercise tv added another of her workouts so im not as bummed as i was) and arm strength training. i did like 15 or so crunches and said to hell with it. i have a bad headache so i cut myself some slack.

the scale is holding strong at 217.. thats good. ive been slacking on the calories. ive been around 1300 for the past two days which is really low for me. time has been getting away from me. today im at 1590 or something like that, which is also still low. but thats where i will stay because it is almost ten pm.

i am having a really hard time this winter. i dont know. the circulation issue makes my hands really hurt, and though i am used to it, it was really really really painful today, to the point where i almost couldnt do strength training because i was scared id drop the weight in my right hand.
surprisingly though that is NOT my biggest complaint about my body right now.
i crack everywhere. and the parts that dont crack by themselves i have to pop them myself to release the pressure that builds up partly from the circulation issue, partly from arthritis.
thats fine. im used to it. anyone that knows me knows i sound like a freaking bowl of rice krispies.
my problem is my knees. bending them to sit in a couch, if i dont stretch them out, they have to be popped about every 7 minutes. even sitting here with a slight bend, i have to crack them. it is really torking me off. it hurts, both before and after. if i dont or if i do.

wow. who knew i had such issues with that?? i know its been bothering me because my knees are painful but come on.

oh good news. my real age has been lowered. it was almost ten years older, and since i have been on this journey, ive been taking the test sporadically. i am now just a year older, not ten. thats a huge difference.

oh and, i had a great surprise this morning. duncan came running into the bedroom when he knew i was up. i mean, running full steam ahead, to give me a kiss. he actually sat right in front of me and just licked me so much. i actually felt my heart swell.

until later when i thought walter was coming in.. i had my back to the door, turned, expecting to see walt. it was dunc. yup. he got a scream in his face.