Wednesday, January 28, 2009
I fought it all afternoon....I wanted into that candy jar at work from 1:30 on...it was nearly unbearable. I drank 3 bottles of water and had 5 pieces of gum. But I did it. It was all psychological. And I was so pleased with myself. Then I spent nearly 2 hours in the car driving home in a storm and had to stop at the grocery store. I was stressed, hungry andnot looking forward to getting home to absent minded argumentative teen and evening routine...so I was nearly talking outloud to myself as I circled my cart around the bakery section. I was just about to the old trick of buying a box of tarts or danishes, eat 3 or so, pay for it with other stuff at check out, then toss package in trash in parking lot to hide the evidence. You have no idea how strong the compulsion was. But somehow I dug deep and told myself to hang in and then I could feel so awesome tonight instead of all the range of negative emotions that would come after this 5 minute "fix".
Well here I am - I did it. Came in within my calorie goal for today. NO binges. NO guilt.