FORWARDS EVER, BACKWARDS NEVER
Monday, January 26, 2009
I joined SP in August 2008 and I sceptically eased myself into tracking nutrition, sleep, water and exercise. I was afraid that after a while I'd start seeing hints of good results and then start backsliding again as I've done over and over again in the past. On the contrary, I actually put on weight to begin with. I persevered till about October and realised I'd actually stopped bingeing on crisps and biscuits. I spent hours just reading articles and blogs and I began to have hope because I began to appreciate just how much eating between meals actually came up to and I started to stop that.
I've never been a drinker of water. Getting myself to drink even 6 cups of water took great effort but I tried. I found that drinking didn't make me bloat as I'd feared and actually helped me to regulate myself properly. Gradually I stopped grabbing for sweets or chocolates whenever I felt like it. Stopped buying them too - except for chocolate. By the middle of November when I had to travel to North Carolina to attend my sister's MBA graduation, I still hadn't lost any weight BUT I was able to fit into a suit that I'd last worn for my 40th birthday!
America was great. My sisters went out of their way to receive me well. It was awesome. I spent Thanksgiving with one and went over to Chicago to spend a birthday with the other. Obviously I just had to throw caution to the wind and try out all the goodies - all the foods we don't get to eat in Europe - pumpkin pie, sweet potato pie, cheesecakes, rootbeer (as in SODA), jellybeans, pecan pie etc. You name it, I tasted it . However, thanks to SP I didn't quite go overboard as I would have done left to my own devices and I did scale things down - when you're obliged to make account it does makes a difference.
I did put on weight. Oh yes! But whereas before I would have been inclined to just kind of give up on myself and have a nice gooey chocolate cake to cheer myself up, I read about others who shared their setback experiences and overcame them on SP and realised I could just move on and do better for myself. I started to walk. Ten minutes at first, then more. I thank each and everyone who through sharing their struggles, setbacks and victories motivated me to pick myself up and move on. I've set new goals for 2009 and I'm taking it one day at a time, forwards ever, backwards never. I feel confident now that I can do this.