Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Since I've been doing so much better the last couple of weeks -- eating better, exercising, drinking more water -- but avoiding the scale, I thought I'd bite the bullet this morning and weigh myself.
And it turns out I have GAINED WEIGHT. 5.5 pounds of it, to be exact.
Each time I weigh myself I'm heavier than the last time, and each time it's the heaviest I've ever been in my life! And it doesn't seem to matter whether I'm spending the whole day lounging on my sofa eating pizza or whether I'm walking to work and back, eating salads, drinking 4 bottles of water and doing wall pushups in the bathroom.
Is it hopeless???
What am I doing wrong?
How am I supposed to keep my efforts healthy and not regress into fullblown eating disorder mania if this keeps up?
...It's pretty overwhelming to think about right now, so today's menu is water, sushi rolls, and total denial.