Saturday January 17th 2009
Day 21

I have been craving pizza for the last couple of days, and I decided to just let the feelings come, and smell it when it is in the house. if I can use my imagination, I can pretend I am actually eating it, then that would satisfy the craving. so I searched on the net for someone eating pizza, you tube, wouldn’t you know it, had a lot of people, I watched this wanna be body builder eat this personal size pizza on his stomach hahahahaha, then this smaller Asian guy eat a whole large size dominos pizza, without stopping in 6 minutes, now that was impressive, so watching them helps on some level. I am babysitting today
For 4 hours, so I will bring some apple cider with me, that is the easiest to do. and drink my greens before I go. my back and middle of my body is starting to hurt, but I think it is because I sit on my bed slumped up on pillows while I write theses journal and approve messages on the sites. yoga will help, I have to start it.
Ok back from babysitting, my energy was great, I ran, I chased, I laughed, it was cool, I noticed I felt frustrated with one of the kids not listening, I noticed I had little patience with her, but did not react to it. but it is something I noticed, prob because I live with the same ages at home. so there is really no break. I drank all the juice I brought, and I think I am going for the next week do mono juicing, and get a pill form of greens or powdered form, I need a break.