Sunday, January 18, 2009
I'm down 5 pounds so far since the first of the year. That may not seem like a lot, but it seemed like all I did was gain over the past few months. I have been exercising, and I have to admit my stamina is getting somewhat better. I can do Cardio Max now without thinking I'm going to die, and I can now do 8 real push ups before I have to put my knees down.
What bothers me is my lack of support from my coworkers. Unlike a lot of people who jump on the weight loss band wagon on Jan. 1, it seems like they just keep on doing what they have always done, and I'm the odd one out. I look at them and they are eating candy and take out and then complaining about how bad they feel and how tired they are. I just can't let that bother me. I refuse to feel bad any longer and I really don't need their support anyway.
I got my cartilage pierced yesterday and I really like it. I was going to to make it my 20 pound reward, but there was a sale on yesterday when Kelsey got her third holes done, so I just did it then. Now my 20 pound reward will be a cute earring to put in it.
I also bought some size M jammies yesterday at Target. They fit, but I would like for them to fit a little better, so they are hanging up in the closet and I'll wear them in a week or two. I have my outfit picked out to wear on the bus when we leave for New York in 9 weeks and 3 days and it is hanging right where I can see it when I open my closet door.
I just feel different this time. While I'm motivated, I don't feel panicked or fearful. Maybe I'm more patient and more sure of myself. It could be that I have not set unrealistic goals and I can go with the flow a little more. Not sure what it is, but whatever it is, it feels good.