Sunday, January 18, 2009
I've been doing really well, I think.
I've been using the nutrition tracker, to a friggen T actually, and my calorie intake is far less than it used to be. When I created my account, I tracked my food completely honestly and some days I was hitting about 2,500 calories! No wonder I gained all this weight! I've been under my 1500 every day since I started a week ago, sometimes right at my min which is 1200! I definitely think the nutrition tracker helps a lot. It not only does it all for me in an easy way, but when I feel like cheating I haven't so far because I know I'll have to log it in there! For me, that's awesome.
I wish I could find the time to blog here everyday about my experiences and woes with all this, but between working out, working, spending time with DH and doing homework for classes, I am all over the place without a second to think about coming here to type every day! Luckily, I got my butt out of bed early today so I have time before work.
Last night was a real test of how motivated I am to get my body back. DH and I went to a bar after work for our friend's 21st birthday celebration. Being here in Germany, people are allowed to smoke in the bars. So it was a double whammy for me! Man, I had a HORRIBLE day at work, one I would normally be chain-smoking all night after! But I just chewed and sucked on my toothpicks and told myself I'm stronger than that. I did well! Then we got to the bar, all our friends were already wasted, or getting there, and all I got was a cranberry juice (they had no diet coke?!) and I didn't even feel the urge to smoke once!!! I will admit, though, it was kinda nice to be around the smell for a little while. I know that sounds crazy, and it felt it after too when I was driving home because my jacket STUNK!! I threw it in the wash first thing this morning because it was making me sick! I think I'm really going to stick with the whole not smoking thing!!!! YAY! Today is 9 days cigarette free!!
I was proud of myself also for not getting out of control drunk. I am very bad at saying no... Sigh. I like to drink and have a good time, but I like beer when I go to bars. It's cheaper, easier, faster... And has whopping amounts of calories!! Even a Mich Ultra (my choice of beer) has 90 calories!!!! And the ultra is supposed to mean "Ultra healthier" or something like that. Seriously?!!! NO THANK YOU!!!
All in all, this last week has really taught me a lot! About myself, about how badly I was treating my body, about how I got to where I am... But most of all, how much I really want to get back down to where I am comfortable and stay there!! I know I can do it!