what a difference a day makes
Friday, January 16, 2009
I went to bed Friday excited about the weekend, looking forward to an easy work week and lazy weekend...then I woke up Saturday...
and realized how much can change in a blink of an eye... Saturday we lost a dear friend of ours, a fellow law enforcement officer - who chose to take his own life. There are always so many questions when that happens, speculations, rumors (which I hate and refuse to listen to or take part in) that it makes life go all topsy-turvy.
Monday, my boss was in a car accident... sent him on the the hospital for tests so he's been out all week and I've been worried sick.
I'm also a supervisor now... this is a new position for me, one I've been doing EVERYTHING for about 4 months consistently, though was doing part of it for a year now-- a supervisor in a probation office is just like anywhere else...and employee problems are here coupled with probationer problems, I have felt like a kindergarten teacher all week. I was ready to cry yesterday and I don't do that... not over work..
So this week has been challenging. I have ignored my brain screaming to get up and exercise for the past 2 mornings, choosing instead to pray like crazy for that half an hour to try to encourage my heart and soul. I guess I can't argue as the pray is needed also.
I have a challenge to take part in a 21 day fast for world evangelism. Drinking liquids only. I'm contemplating this, but not sure if I can do this. But then another part of me wants to badly to prove I can conquer the hold food has on me and do something great for God all at the same time
Prayers are coveted, needed...
as I said it's been a long week....