Thursday, January 15, 2009
23 weeks since I started training for the PF Changs half marathon. Everything I've done, all workouts have been focused on a) burning calories b) building strength and c) completing my training runs. I've followed a training program, I've run a long run on all but 1 Saturday during these 23 weeks. I've cut back my hiking and biking so that I could focus on the run. It all comes to an end this Sunday. I'm balancing between excited, terrified (what was I thinking! GULP), and a little sad that it will all be over.
This is my taper week, I'm supposed to shorten my runs and cut back my workouts to let my body recover a bit and rest. I didn't go to kickboxing as usual but I got out of work and it was 70 degrees out, clear and sunny (at the time), and I thought this is PERFECT running weather. I had some errands to do first...I donated ALL of my "fat" clothes - I have nothing over a size 12 in my house now except for 1 pair as my "before" so I never forget what I was! I've been hanging onto those clothes out of fear maybe...not sure...but I didn't want to get rid of them. Well I sorted, bagged, and dropped off all those clothes. They are gone forever and so is the Plus size version of me!
So I get home and realize I still want a run... I don't need a run, it's my day off. I'm supposed to be taking it easy didn't need to burn the calories (not that I minded), didn't need stress relief (for once), training is done...but something told me I wanted to run. I bartered w/myself that we could handle a short hard run (was thinking long and slow)...so b/c it's getting dark I quickly get changed and headed out. No music, didn't watch the heart rate monitor, just ran.
It was maybe a 20 minute run. It was pretty hard and faster than my normal pace. It was just over a mile and it felt great! I felt like this run was MINE...I didn't need it...I WANTED IT! I walked for a little bit after the run to cool down and I just kept thinking...wow that felt GREAT! I WANTED to run...when did that happen?
2 days til the half. I'm guessing I won't enjoy every step, I know it will be tough, I'll have to push my body to limits it hasn't reached before. I'm going to remember how the run tonight felt and know that all the training for the half is what gave me the craving to run tonight. That's a good feeling...and going into the weekend knowing I've done all I can do, I'm healthy, and I've prepared well, is pretty rewarding and I haven't even completed the race yet!