okay. the boyfriend is having a vi business p coming over friday so i have been up since 4:45 this am cleaning.
so, needless to say my goals from yesterday were not met.
no strength and no treadmill. i did make up my 35 minutes from yesterday and also did my two hours for today. just finished, actually. i had all but 40 minutes done before r. got home and when he went to basketball, i did it.
im surprised i did it. i am so tired it would have been easy to say no. and then when the exercise tv channel wouldnt work, it would have been easy to throw in the towel and say forget it.
but i tried again and it went through.
barely have sat down all day today. its almost nine and im barely at 1000 calories.
i did clean out the closet today. i also cleaned out another closet, too. so there, closets. we meet again next month.
yeah the scale isnt cooperating with me and i wanted to throw it out the window today.
so i got hot dog buns at the store yesterday for r.'s dinner (beer bratwurst) and last night i had two tofu pups on buns.
and today the tofu pups and buns were all i could think of. i was sitting there, thinking, you know, maybe i should up my calories a real lot since it isnt working with around 1700 calories. you know dee, spark does say you should be eating 2200 minimum... you can have tofu pups and buns.. even if you go over, thats okay because you know, tomorrow, you'll be right back on track.
and i was getting up to get another tofu pup and hot dog bun for lunch (after having one already) and im like, wow. is this a binge? am i planning to binge?
and then i got ....weirded out. i made a deal with myself that i could have one as a snack later. i mean, a tofu pup with a bun and even a TABLESPOON of ketchup is 160 calories, 1.5 g fat. not horrible.
(and i dont use a tablespoon since im allergic to tomatoes)
i kept to that deal all day. i had the two last hot dog buns for dinner with tofu pups... so they are gone now.
but a weird thing for me to want to ruin my calories over. you know?
i think its because i dont have bread products often since obviously i cant control myself over a stupid hot dog bun. and they werent even good ones, either. they were kinney drug 99 cent ones.