Wednesday, January 07, 2009
This is my first time doing this so if I ramble on just forgive please....I joined here not in hopes of being a size 4 or 6... as I have been programmed by television and diet ads to think this is the perfect size...but to just be able to fit in my clothes again and feel comfortable...not to mention...like what I see. I have been blessed with a large bone structure and know that for me a nice size 10 or 12 is just great. During my 43 years I have been through all the sizes from 3 to 24 and now I just want to hit a happy medium and stay there. I found myself in a size 3 when I was 18 after a bad accident. I was so amazed that I was this small that I really did not realize how bad I actually looked and I also developed an eating disorder to stay this small. After getting married I began to eat alot and at 26 found myself at 254 pounds and in a size 24. I was so miserable and was embarressed by my weight but did not find the motivation to do anything about this until I reached 34 years old. Through eating very little and walking every day I dropped my weight to 142 pounds and stayed around this weight for five years and this is where I found myself the happiest. I looked the way I wanted to and it was so nice to actually enjoy clothes shopping...not to mention feel good in whatever I put on. Well...along the way to 43 I now find myself up to 200 pounds and miserable again about the way I look and feel. I know my story is common and is shared by alot of us...I hope with help and motivation that it won't be long til I will be feeling good again... and knowing that there is many others going through the same thing makes me feel less alone and isolated in my struggle...Just want to end by saying hang in there everyone and to everyone that has reached their goal...way to go!!!!!!!!!