Just want to feel good in my clothes again!!!!!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

This is my first time doing this so if I ramble on just forgive please....I joined here not in hopes of being a size 4 or 6... as I have been programmed by television and diet ads to think this is the perfect size...but to just be able to fit in my clothes again and feel comfortable...not to what I see. I have been blessed with a large bone structure and know that for me a nice size 10 or 12 is just great. During my 43 years I have been through all the sizes from 3 to 24 and now I just want to hit a happy medium and stay there. I found myself in a size 3 when I was 18 after a bad accident. I was so amazed that I was this small that I really did not realize how bad I actually looked and I also developed an eating disorder to stay this small. After getting married I began to eat alot and at 26 found myself at 254 pounds and in a size 24. I was so miserable and was embarressed by my weight but did not find the motivation to do anything about this until I reached 34 years old. Through eating very little and walking every day I dropped my weight to 142 pounds and stayed around this weight for five years and this is where I found myself the happiest. I looked the way I wanted to and it was so nice to actually enjoy clothes shopping...not to mention feel good in whatever I put on. Well...along the way to 43 I now find myself up to 200 pounds and miserable again about the way I look and feel. I know my story is common and is shared by alot of us...I hope with help and motivation that it won't be long til I will be feeling good again... and knowing that there is many others going through the same thing makes me feel less alone and isolated in my struggle...Just want to end by saying hang in there everyone and to everyone that has reached their goal...way to go!!!!!!!!! emoticon
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    Hi Angyroger
    Thanks for leaving this note. I totally understand your desire to feel comfortable and good about yourself, like the way you look, enjoy life without always worrying about overeating. This is me, too!! This is my second day on SparkAdventure site and I am feeling like there is a lot of support to make some needed lifestyle changes. Please don't despair and, like me, lets just take today and do what we can today. emoticon emoticon Kiki
    3335 days ago
    Hey ANGYROGER's,

    i know exactly how you feel. I have been overwieght for a long time, and I currently weigh 250lbs. It takes alot for me to look at myself without getting depressed. Shopping is hard because I look round in everything I wear. I have a large bone structure as well, and a size 10-12 is a oerfect size for me also. I have gotten down to a 3, but I looked sick. I just want to be healthy, and for my self image to be positive. thanks for your story it motiviates me to keep on striving. emoticon
    3335 days ago
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