Saturday, January 03, 2009
This is who I am!
I blew up in the 4th grade at age 10 when my mother had to go back to work. But it wasn't her fault although everybody told her it was. It was my dad and sisters fault because all they cooked was spaghetti and garlic bread and I just couldn't keep up with all that starch. I had been very active but it just was never enough.
I don't blame anyone, I just feel badly that my mother carried the guilt for almost 20 years before I found out.
We were very close for all of my life and I was sorry to lose her 5 years ago but I have few regrets as we did spend a lot of time together before her passing. Before she was diagnosed with Diabetes (which I never did believe she had) we used to enjoy each other and would get ice cream sundaes now and again. We still had fun after that but quit the ice cream when we would go out together. I think we always felt we had lost something. Mama's passion was ice cream and it just became the thing to do when she needed a break from reality.
I wish I had found SparkPeople when she was still alive as we could have "sparked" together.