Thursday, January 01, 2009
As a teenager at New Year, I would take all the chocolates and sweets I had been given over Christmas and put them in a big tin, then tape the tin up with yards and yards of sellotape or duct tape. Then it went into the bottom of my wardrobe. I have memories of New Years' Eve parties where I closed my eyes amidst all the merrymaking and solemnly vowed, at the last stroke of midnight, that this would be the year I lost weight for good.
Looking back, I see I obviously didn't QUITE want to let go of those chocs... but was foxed about how to integrate them into a healthy-eating lifestyle. Plus ca change eh? Reminds me of whoever it was, Theseus or Perseus, asking his crewmates to tie him to the mast of the ship so he could hear the Sirens beautiful song but still get away.
But this year my resolution is to be gentle and patient with myself and others as much as I possibly can. I hope there'll be a knock on effect on the health/running/weight - I sense that the less punitive I am about things, the part of me that wants to be healthy and the part that wants to slob might make better friends with each other... then perhaps I might not need to tape the tin up so tightly.